I’ve taken myself to court. Call me the prosecutor, judge AND jury.
Lately my behavior as a pet parent has been unacceptable. #inmyopinion My subconcious has taken over and is out of control. I am guilty of dog comparison behavior:
- Am I weird?
- Am I wrong?
- Am I a bad Doodle Mom?
MORE IMPORTANTLY –
- Will it ever stop?
Jaxson is now 7 months old #wheredidthetimego?
And I can’t stop seeing a little piece of Leo (here and there) in many of the things he does…
Friends, family and Doodle fans are not helping with my rehabilitation either.
As Jax gets older, people fumble through that initial greeting:
- Cuff their hands over their mouths,
as they struggle with the words:
I’m sorry, but I gotta tell you – he looks so much like Leo.
I smile, nod my head and reassure them there’s no need to apologize. While deep down in my doodle, I want to shout back at them –
But I feel so freakin bad having those same thoughts…
Even though Jaxson and Leo come from the same breeder, their family tree does not share any limbs. I didn’t want that. #Imadesure
I know what your thinking “it’s the same breed – there’s bound to be similarities.” And while that is conceivable, it doesn’t stop me from observing and comparing then feeling awful for doing it.
The other day Jax went on a walk carrying a ball in his mouth. A lady pulling out of her driveway, stopped and got out of her car to make the comparison. Then she apologized…
I want Jaxson to be his own “doodle” not live in the hearts and minds as an L.J. #littleLeo
Perhaps I’m feeling this way because Jax is now the same age Leo was when he came into our lives. This would certainly explain my many deja vu moments…
And yes, in case you’re wondering, I do mistakenly yell out “Harley & Leo” sometimes when I know good and Doodle well I wanted to say “Harley & Jax.” But can’t you see my dilemma?…
SO HELP A SISTAH OUT –
- Do you think it will stop?
- Do you think I will be able to look at him as he plays, cuddles and or sleeps and see him for who he is? #behisowndoodle
JUST JAXSON –
I’m hoping this is only a phase since he’s getting older, and at some point and time I can submit my appeal and get my sentence over turned.
But for right now, I’m afraid I am guilty as charged. #sendcommissarymoneyplease
Have a wonderful weekend and be kind to someone too!